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09:57 pm: i need to do better in school
dear journal,

ever played the game where the ground is lava and you cant touch the ground. You usually play it in the bedroom, living room, or just anywhere around the house. You jump from couch to table to couch. Well i think i just fell in the lava.

i need better grades.

09:57 pm: i need to do better in school
dear journal,

ever played the game where the ground is lava and you cant touch the ground. You usually play it in the bedroom, living room, or just anywhere around the house. You jump from couch to table to couch. Well i think i just fell in the lava.

i need better grades.

06:05 pm: ::continue
dear journal,


hm the bat mitsfah party....

was great. they had a pretty good party. they also had a really good looking girl there. she was the most beautiful person ive seen in my life, no lies. she was a sophomore in high school, from L.A., and what else can i say? i got to dance with her a few times. i had a lot of fun at the party durring the end. the party started around 7 i think, and didnt really end until 2 or 3 in the morning. i wish i could have worn somthing a little better than what i did wear. the morning after the party, i felt really depressed for some reason. the depression in which you fell that theres nothing out there. the cold sad, tearless depression. i have a hard time letting things go. once i think about being in a place, i really want to be there. and have memories of being in that place. and when i leave that place, i feel depressed and lost. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me. today i felt depressed even around my friends. walking in the streets and seeing places and seeing tall man made creations amazes me. i want to see those creations, i want to walk those streets, i want to be in those places.

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03:23 pm: deplincare x lomporan = two star hotel gibberish
dear journal,

thursday after school, we hopped in a car and drove to california, Los Angeles. The long long car ride drove me crazy. Ive learned that if you sleep in a road trip, time goes by way faster. we made it in record time just about. i listened to Minus the Bear the whole way there. left colorado about 3:00 pm and got there about 8:00 the next day. The damp smell of the city on a sunny morning brought back good memories, memories of me and my friend playing in the streets. we arrived at the hotel that we always stay at. this hotel used to be crap but now its alot better. Two star hotel. this hotel also has a bowling place were we usually play some games of bowling. we ate breakfast with my uncle brad, then drove on over to the swap meet. the swap meet in just about an indoor flea market, it sucks. then we headed back to the hotel so my parents could get some rest after their all nighters from the road trip. i just stayed awayke playing some videogames. later that day, we went over to a resturaunt called "Brents." its great. then we went to a jewish service thing on friday. i saw this lady that look way too familiar for me to be wrong. then saturday we went to the bat mitsfah, thats the only reason we went over there is because of the bat mitsfah. but the bat mitsfah services went by fast. We headed back to the hotel after that, did a little shopping for candy, and wen


thats all i can say for now ill update later.... tomorrow

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08:41 pm: ...
dear journal,

heres somthing you do not want to do. when there is a snow storm outside and its blowing like a bitch, DO NOT GO OUTSIDE WHAT SO EVER. it is soooo cold. and it doesnt stop being cold. doesnt stop like when you twist your joints in your fingers or toes and the twisting never stops. and the pain hurts and hurts.

bush is winning. my favoirite color is red so im leaning tward him. i think he might make a better president, but im not into polotics that much, i just might be too young.

my brother has a girl friend.i dont nkow whats gotten into him.
my older brother snapped at my mom yesterday. cussing up a storm. he probably isnt taking his pills, or just has the same personality as Berry Eagan in the movie "punch - drunk love."


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06:47 am: wow
dear journal,

i really didnt expect snow THIS much. we got a snow day. theres alot of good things from a snow day. theres also alot of no-so-good things, like boardom. ive been going back and fourth between the tv, and my computer. theres nothing on! so im kind of bored and dont know what i should do for fun. im thinking of going biking to my friends house.... HAH!

i dont know what i can do for fun around here

12:59 pm: Halloween day
dear journal,

i met some one very interesting yesterday. i was surfing the internet and came across a xanga. this xanga had cool stuff about this person named "christina". shes really cool, likes writing, listening to cool music, and we both think alike. not-to-mention shes also from my home town, san jose, California. i found all of this stuff out when i talked to her on aim.

there are some really really good people out there in the world you just have to meet them, you know?

06:25 pm: Halloween
dear journal,

i have customised my journal to make it look somewhat decent.

i have some problems about Halloween. i dont know how to get out of this. halloween falls on a sunday, and i cant do SHIT on sunday, for chruch reasons. well i want to sneak out and have fun, and expierence the joy of haloween, but i cant do SHIT on sunday, because your supposed to keep the "(black)sabbath day holy" My grandpa died on halloween. i never really had a connection with my grandpa. i was too young and scared of him. So we are going to my grandma's and spend the whole day with her. I really dont want to spend the WHOLE day with her, maybe a few hours (2 or 3) if im in a good mood. Then it would be fun to go fuck around with my friends, but i cant because i cant do SHIT on sunday.

journal, please help me.

06:04 pm: finally got my damn computer back
dear journal,

what if fire is the world's biggest mistake? what if fire was god's biggest mistake? we would be immune to the harsh cold. and cold wouldnt be so cold.

i finally got my damn comptuer back. im not so addicted to the computer any more. ive been getting off of my ass latley. i signed up for baseball, so im trying to get in shape.
ive been listening to alot of music. music seems to calm me down. especially when i listen to Minus the Bear. their music melts my mind. i just tend to think of good things when i listen to music. Tortoise is another mind melting band.

dear dear journal,

i have gotten my grade up from a D- to almost a B-.world geography

09:40 am: damn
im here at school, finally figured out how to get around. im a little pissed. geometry sucks. i really dont know what to say, i didnt even start out with dear journal. life just kidna sucks for me right now. all this church crap is making me so confused. im just going to come clean and let it all out. i guess thats all to say, now that im at school i feel a little better.

09:42 pm: up to date
dear journal,

my sister brought home ballons from winning something from her job. my little brother loves ballons. we have a great room thats very tall and ...great. so i let a baloon go in there and my little brother started to cry. i wonder why he crys for letting somthing go. maybe the baloons are his friends. but he is only 6 years old. no but maybe the physical balloon was his friend. i dont know.

09:13 pm: another update
dear journal,

ive been talking to this guy that goes to my school. durring lunch he just chills with us and just eats his lunch. some times i acknowledge him in the halls, with a nod or some words. some times after school. i dont know his name even though its been a month since i met him, and i dont bother to ask. im pretty sure he doesnt know mine either.

07:41 pm: update
dear journal,

today was an alright day i just wish i could have 1 more week of fall break. i hate going back to school when your sleep schedule is off. any way ive been pretty happy, im just mad cause my parent bitch left and right. they think that anything i say or do is rude. well i dont want to bitch to you about it and you probably dont want to hear it.
ive been thinking alot lately, heres one of my thoughts:
what if we didnt have complete control over ourselves and we were controlled by someone else? then we would be known as puppets, and dolls would be known as puppets. and puppets would be free like dolls or maybe wouldnt even exist.

ive really got to go to sleep, and its only 9

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07:41 pm: today
dear journal,

today was an alright day i just wish i could have 1 more week of fall break. i hate going back to school when your sleep schedule is off. any way ive been pretty happy, im just mad cause my parent bitch left and right. they think that anything i say or do is rude. well i dont want to bitch to you about it and you probably dont want to hear it.
ive been thinking alot lateley, heres one of my thoughts:
what if we didnt have complete control over ourselfs and we were controlled by someone else? then we would be known as puppets, and dolls would be known as puppets. and puppets would be free like dolls or maybe wouldnt even exist.

ive really got to go to sleep, and its only 9

end.

10:09 pm: update
dear journal,

ive never put in a journal because ive been a little stupid/behind. my birthday was yesterday. it was a pretty good birthday. i got some money, and i got to go fly to san jose to see some of my friends. i got to do alot of what i wanted to do. i left last friday, october the 8th i believe, and i flew there by myself. i got to skip school that day. so friday i landed and i went to ryan's house. he hasn't changed much. but hes alot better than he was. then saturday we went to the mall (we meaning mike, me, amy, and whitney) and saw "a sharks tale" i think i kidna liked it. pretty funny at some parts. and then saturday night i went to a church dance. it was pretty stupid actually. i went with mike, and we got there around 8:30 and no one was there, but it got a little better at the end. none of the babes there were hot, but they were still cool. i danced with 6 girls. i would have to complement myself on that. i didnt know any of them. mike said i did pretty good, except for the end. they played 2 slow songs, and i was done with dancing. i just waited outside like an idiot. but i learned. so sunday was pretty good, i got to visit my old church again. hasnt changed much, but it actually has. i wont give specifics but alot of people have moved out. and then i got on the plane, and the plane ride was a bitch so i pulled out my book that jason my brother gave me. its a great book, its called "the perks of being a wallflower," by stephen choboski. that book encouraged me to update my live journal. so monday the day after i got back, i hung out with sam, thats just about it. yesterday i didnt do too much except snuck out at night with sam and joel. today was ok.

now to say what happened between the time i last put in my journal. that lisa girl....gee. i cant believe how stupid i was. i liked her for some stupid reason. i just dont care about her anymore. theres more to life than waiting for some girl 2 states away. but now life is great. made alot of new friends here.

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08:20 pm: life..
ugh finally I'm free, Yeah. my first entry

i was so tired today, i almost fell asleep during class. my eyes felt soo heavy
school : boring but it was friday
I'm still tired.....
except my eyes aren't as heavy
ive lost sleep because of a Thomas Edison and the Motion Camera movie i had to make in a couple hours. i got finished in less than 6 hours.....it was a blessing you'd have to admit
well old news but its a reminder : my teachers all suck cock, except for Mr. Mckelvey, and Mrs. Hertzog. ugh I'm bored......i don't know what to talk about

talk
about
talk
about
hmmm......
-_- zzzzz.....


-jakob